Light Reactive Lenses

I wanted to avoid, wanted to avoid at all costs remember that my bunny had died because, at first I was doing wrong so I thought. . remember to avoid "but .. I think now that that's also dumber than dumb .. just go with the pain of another loss and give up to me and known sensitivity to issues of this nature .. So rather than try to forget what happened * how I was suggesting * I'll wait for this ... and very excited that she, Venus is well and that all this was for the better. . but it is also inevitable to feel a little bit of guilt that will always be .. and I can not take more than being told that he had nothing to do with me at his inexplicable death ... and even the questions I have: I have given him little love?, maybe I did not realize the day before something went wrong .. or if it was true that he needed a couple .. or else they could have done something that day in the morning .. but I was sick! in bed! and it saddens me greatly because I had seen maybe .. and some have done .. but nothing .. I did not stop. I could not get to give him food and get the case. Well .. I deal with it. Stuff happens. but I DO NOT WANT passing .. that's my problem .. I must face the things I do not want and it scares me that things happen that hurt me and that everything take its natural course, I do not like this reality and prefer to be sheltered in a fantasy where anything eternal I do not want happens, nobody I disappear and my desires are fulfilled. (
And that's why .. what * exactly * that she will do this time and cherish as I do with all my pets .. or as I did with the polliwi, my Pettry who died in October (and of course Venus 17 died Tuesday afternoon .. well .. in the afternoon was that my mom found it .. could have been in the morning). And I may contradict in many respects but the truth esque explanation of my emotions is not mine definitely .. for nothing.

I do not want to lose track of this issue not so I leave it up to here .. until the next time that I find so confused by this stupid reality mme wants to catch and damage even more. _.