fucking tired Sunday
this past Sunday I was checking the bags online working, sending emails, taking notes, addresses and telephone numbers to call for an appointment early Monday for an interview. I also connected by msn. last week I had a discussion with my girlfriend via msn, hacerca putting the stupid nicknames that always seem addressed to someone, but the problem is that for a brief moment seemed directed to me, seconds after I return to reality, I asked indirect way ivan who targeted the outskirts platic is rather long and weary, if not pissed, I decided that I had not Areva: delete it from my list. MSN was the only way to allow me to establish contact with her, not now. derrepente delete it during the conversation. the domngo received an e-mail from it, contained a statement expressing qe basically something like: Just like that? without saying goodbye?, ok. to which I reply with: goodbye? is. she responds to mail and I do the other way and trying to understand what happened, she finally sent me an email asking why I do not accept, apparently, if I appeared on line but could not speak. that kind of shit pindhe now is that if he wanted to talk to me, but for what? because if he never does and I rarely speak to you. seems to be left with the thorn in the last conversation, because I let her talk and kick my msn, the problem is that very castor can not finish a combersacion if it is she who says the last word. I keep answering the
mails con la mascarada de que no se que paso, que fue muy posible que mi amiga "Chio" o el nuevo virus que se propaga por el msn haya sido el causante de tal cosa, tambien le aclaro que no fue la unica afectada de mi lista, ya que varios amigos sobre todo los extranjeros, han sido borrados. ella dice que no pudo haber sido el virus, asi que le digo que entonces fue posible que mi amiga Chio haya borrado y usado mi cuenta de msn despues de que la dejara usar mi laptop. ella contesta con una actitud de exnovia molesta, al decir que entendio la indirecta de mi amiga Chio. yo le pregunto> y atodo esto que?, si me quiere hablar es por algo entonces que me lo diga via e-mail, ella solo contesta que queria saber el motivo del porque no le contesto en su msn. por Of course not believed him and mothers and I really interested in a shit if she believed me or not my friend "Chio". as you want and I left more pissed off I replied to this speech hacerca encontrars with petty feelings, focus and decide what you want to fuck her in her living fucking bitch. Enjoy
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ha!, Wanted to talk to me? and that miracle? something bad happened? you wanted to get on or try to make friends (being your friend)?. as you know what you feel, or even talk, just ask me things to test me to see, I did not ask me were to put to the test. forget (you said it, many years) tell me how to do it, perhaps know, as you know that?, not jump to conclusions just because they mention a single name, which in your case, I do know that you're with someone in an "official" but yet you still dreaming about me and my hacerca realistic poems, thus not whether to be flattered or missed, I also made you well (as you claim you), you you did well. mo follow blames me for your mistakes and your sins (because they always give me the impression that I was the one who let you), I which were mine, I did something in time to remedy them and ask for forgiveness (I said would always be there for you in case something bad happened, I express my feelings and that you have done to you?, you never know, it's very comfortable having someone always there to help him, that's unfair but without enbargo always told you would be supporting you in any problem), I am coping (mistakes and sins), the ogullo me worth a damn, which you do not, and it poisons you. why not just think you focus on what you want from me, which is why you need to make you feel calm and leave your hate yourself?, you need me to be a little happier?.
nothing but want my words?, My way of expression? My way of thinking?, My way to comfort you?, Makes you feel better to know that someone else is still interested in you?, Or is it that you do not conform with the feeling that I get tired of you again and not stand the idea of having the last word, because you're the one who wants be saying that, in a pleasant and serene as to express the fact that it hurts or you do not care, because you insist on wishing me the best and I'll always be in your thoughts and always remember me as something nice and beautiful , like you're washing your hands to not feel any remorse?
maybe it was good to mess Chio to delete people from my msn, do not you feel special (in other words, do not feel as a result of jealousy), because you were not the only person to get off my list. made me think when they protested in a sense to believe you out of my msn for being upset and saying goodbye. Nor take this so dramatic (or feel), or as a final excuse to never talk because you think it will make me feel bad or upset if the occasion arrived send me a text message dicendo: hello. also, do you think will put a smile on my face to receive it?, why would that happen?, or to be your boyfriend. just get me out of wave and indirectly I would respond: what happened? (But not as a greeting, but as a cuestionante the reason why I got the bow)
my reflection to this: I know I did in the past, I was good, not perfect, I do put my part to make a change and try to improve, I asked for forgiveness for my herrores, I was the one who decided to break (and that therefore what, feeling victimized? no, I felt very hurt at the time but now nothing to see) . I went back to express my feelings for you, although I knew could not make a difference. not that I did not know that was what I had on my side, the question goes to you.
make up your mind what will you do in your life, do not know if I have any future in it, if you have something to tell me, tell me and you, tell me you think I have future place in your life besides that was something " beautiful "in your past and there will always be a part of me in you, that does not interest me because in other words I'm a memory and now, that's not something related to the future and if I have a place, I do not do it know, do not say goodbye and that he never will be redirected me the word, or you expect to do well and fulfilling all my wishes but I really feel of heart, just do not answer it, swallow the pride of saying the last word if you want to say goodbye. tell all that silence. and if you still feel feelings, what the hell you expect to fight for what you want, ask who the hell are you waiting for despite the fear?. you are and you feel that way because you, you are your own enemy and no one else got to get you out of there, stop autocompadecerte because there are no princes or kings, or suitors who come to get you, they do not exist, only you and Are you supposed to get you where you are.
the net do not know where shit out of me. be sympathetic, I loved with my whole being to this fucking bitch daughter of innocent passage cynical, stupid, my sentimental and emotional side is reserbaba for her, but as before he met and in many aspects of my life, such as work, studies, fun, etc, most were carried out by himself, after so many fucking years she, being all alone again, is something that never should unaccustomed.
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